Anyone else get depressed and lazy as soon as it starts to get cold? Is seasonal depression a real thing? Apparently yes but that doesn’t really make me feel any better now, does it. I feel like all my energy is gone. I don’t want to cook, clean, walk my dog, even see my friends. I barely even want to see my boyfriend. If I could lay in bed all day with a cup of hot Milo and a solid internet connection I think I’d do so all winter.
Don’t get me wrong, I love winter. I love snow, I love this city, I love winter clothes. Why my energy has to leave and I start to feel sad about things that don’t matter anymore is beyond me. Apparently it’s called SAD and that makes too much sense.
It’s almost like constant PMS. Everything feels a bit overwhelming. And if anyone messages me to get out of the house, get some sunshine, eat some veggies, or do some exercise to make it go away I think I’ll shout because duh I know all of that but knowledge isn’t always power.
It doesn’t help that I no longer have a job to look forward to and am back to the drawing board job searching, once again insecure in my right to live in Europe and how I’m going to adequately support myself. I’ve never written about how I’ve ended up in this situation but maybe I’ll start. Trying to write a ‘travel blog’ definitely didn’t work out because even I was bored by what I was writing and the whole thing just felt phoney.
Anyway, if you read this, that’s nice of you, don’t know why you would but it made me feel a bit better.